i say it`s just for kicks.

Today… today was a blur of hugs, shopping and shopping carts, clothes that humans don’t need, pink, sitting in the hot sun, being cold, and food, so much food.

It’s half past midnight, and I don’t expect to make much sense. Usually on these things, I say whatever is on my mind. Dangerous move.

I was looking at pictures of the Independent Spirit awards online. I remember the first time I saw the telecast… maybe three or four years ago? 2004. Maggie and Jake Gyllenhall were hosting.

If I dressed like anyone, please let it be like Maggie Gyllenhall or Michelle Williams. Or something utterly cute. So cute it hurts.

Shohreh Aghdashloo is a beautiful person. Other beautiful people like her, to me, would be Laura Dern, Catherine Keener, and, um, Ryan Gosling.

I saw a picture of America Ferrera, also, and I came to this conclusion: being “fat” or “skinny” doesn’t even matter anymore. Everyone is just beautiful, and you know it.

BTW, I posted old, old pictures from high school on Facebook to remember the use of my digi (r.i.p. thingy that went with me everywhere). I think everyone looked beautiful back then, because, seriously, I bet you thought you did, too. And you really were. And I bet you all look fabulous now. It’s only been, like… three, four years. I know, I know… I look a million years older now… *ha… ha… ha… ok, enough*

Billy and I had a wedding meeting last night, and on Flickr, we saw the most heartbreakingly cute wedding by a couple nicknamed The Dreamies in Singapore. I actually cried looking through the pictures. Billy said the wedding can be all about me now. So, I have given up whatever anyone else wants, and will now concentrate on making your eyes hurt with cuteness. Yeah, that would make our families happy. The girl had a kind of fairy tale wedding. There was an icing CROWN on top of the cake. *ugh* It was like Ali and Hello Kitty and cuteness merged in some state of nirvana. I really need to stop. We tried another save the date idea… still working on that. Bi’s mum gave me a picture of a cool idea involving centerpiece cakes for each table… actually, Billy and I would like doing that with cupcakes or something. We are both sweet freaks. Dont come to our wedding if you have a problem with hugs and sweets. And dancing.

Ok… I’m going to go try and sleep. Church is tomorrow. And lots of work.