i say it`s just for kicks.

I just talked to Brandi, and then she said goodbye, maybe because that guy from upstairs was there to see her with a cake like she told me, maybe not. I have to admit, I’m always jealous when Brandi’s with other people, but then again, I have Krista, Ana, and Kyle, so I shouldn’t be too jealous. It’s just that when I think of Jenna and Brandi, I really do wish they were here too, because even if they are having much more fun than we are, at least the people here are together, and if that means just having dinner together, talking, and being silly, so be it. I didn’t expect to be so gosh darn emotional about anything like this, and I don’t like talking about it. But it’s Brandi’s birthday, and for the first time in six years… it wasn’t a big deal. Maybe because she isn’t here. Maybe because we don’t talk a lot. We tried calling her last night, and every time she didn’t answer… it just felt so bad to me, I don’t know why. You’d think she’d have her phone on her, and expect a call at least, but there could be a million excuses, and it’s okay. I didn’t expect to cry about it and feel so damn… I don’t know.

Anyways, happy birthday, Brandi. I hope you’re having fun. I dedicate this song to you.

Older Chests
By Damien Rice

Older chests reveal themselves
Like a crack in a wall
Starting small, and grow in time
And we always seem to need the help
Of someone else
To mend that shelf
Too many books
Read me your favourite line

Papa went to other lands
And he found someone who understands
The ticking, and the western man’s need to cry
He came back the other day, you know
Some things in life may change
And some things
They stay the same

Like time, there’s always time
On my mind
So pass me by, I’ll be fine
Just give me time

Older gents sit on the fence
With their cap in hand
Looking grand
They watch their city change
Children scream, or so it seems,
Louder than before
Out of doors, and into stores with bigger names
Mama tried to wash their faces
But these kids they lost their graces
And daddy lost at the races too many times

She broke down the other day, yeah you know
Some things in life may change
But some things they stay the same

Like time, there’s always time
On my mind
So pass me by, I’ll be fine
Just give me time
Time, there’s always time
On my mind
Pass me by, I’ll be fine
Just give me time